Cannot help breaking up with you

I keep closing the door

I keep breaking up with you

Over and over, underscored

Hoping you’ll finally breakthrough

Hear me.

 

Going around creating a mess

You’ll have to solve your shit first.

Surviving to tell the story

Climbing up from purgatory

It’s time.

 

It is different now

I live in my own house. I drive my own bike

I don’t do anything I dislike

Strong identity to stand by

See me.

 

I am my own authority

I make good use of my autonomy

No need to take your power away

I know there is a higher way

Choose.

 

Childhood trauma

disguised as drama

Then what?

Keep looking for a shortcut?

Heal.

 

Desire to punish. Face it or banish.

But how the hell

I was supposed to tell

If I didn’t know it back then?

Let go.

 

“Someone that feels like home”

Is that the dream at all?

I dare you to tame me again

You won’t be able, abstain

Just Quit.

 

Beautiful feelings, nasty thoughts

A mix I don’t want anymore.

We grow in spiral. Messy healing.

There’s nothing more to think

Upgrade.

 

What is yours, what is mine

Just come back to the heart

Pray to reach the source

Don’t ruin it more.

Surrender.

 

I’m going to be fine

I’m one with the divine

I’m holding my sweet child

Taking care of her diamond heart

Protected.

 

You didn’t put me on a pedestal

I live on a mountain. I climbed up my way here

Come join me if you want

But I won’t wait for you this time

Goodbye.

 

Mama watch me thrive

I promise I won’t make you cry

As there’s finally reward, for work well done

Battle is over.

I won.

My core gift is helping others to embrace a grounded spirituality, equally loving our divinity and humanity. I give it by helping people to embody their feelings through different art expressions, beauty and creativity, playing with ideas and words as well as movement practices, proving how intensity is the juice of life, and how compassion is the ingredient that will heal humanity.

Valentina B. Sepulveda is young awarded Chilean filmmaker, writer, and dancer, currently living in India.
She graduated from Film Direction and Social Communication at Universidad Católica de Chile in 2014. Since then, she has been working as a writer, director, and editor of documentaries and experimental films. She also worked as a producer and assistant director in fiction pieces, as a producer in Chilemonos International Animation Film Festival, and as a cinema teacher at the same university where she obtained her degrees, before she left her country to join Auroville International Community. From 2018 until the beginning of 2020, she has worked as a video maker, photographer, and writer for different media units, and from the pandemic onwards she has been exploring different expressions, building up her start-up renaissance company, Ineffable Films Lab from where she plays, experiment and produce projects around movement, dance, poetry, photography and film.